Life EXP

It's when I encounter certain situations/challenges in life that make me think that I just haven't done enough with my life.

I encountered that sort of situation today, and what do I do? I go and cry to the school principle. The tears came really easy for some strange reason, I haven't cried for a long time. I think it really got to me when I was trying to explain what my problem was, and she didn't understand what I was getting at until after several attempts. Yeah, its the language barrier thing, I've no idea how the principle and an English teacher, with no knowledge of Chinese, would communicate. Fortunately, she finally understand what my problem was, and is helping me to sort it out.

My problem? Even though the school is fully aware that I am newbie teacher, I was told that I had to sort out the English Room for Open Day on my own. I was like WTF?! I have no idea of the procedures to do up the room, I had no idea that I had to order my own display paper by the end of today, I had no idea that I had to draft up some room plan for how I was going to arrange the displays...etc, all I was told previously to do, was to prepare some photos and pictures to go up on the walls. I didn't have any problems before at previous Open Days because there had always been a Chinese teacher who'd sorted most of it out, I just helped to put the stuff up onto the walls... so I was feeling pretty overwhelmed. The teacher I had asked about how I can work out how much paper I needed for my room was impatient and exchanged glances with another teacher. They were probably thinking that this was such an easy task, and yet I still had to ask how to do it. I was told to ask for help when I needed it, but all the Chinese teachers are so busy, I just don't feel like bothering them. Am I being too self-consious and considerate?

At less after this week, I would know what to do next time. What makes me angry is that I cried over such a little thing. Oh well, life experience toughens a person up, I just need to gain some more.